A false hope....

Only if i could turn back time....
undo all the mistakes done...
realized the pain i caused...
and heal the people i hurt...
so many regrets ..
all the memories that haunt me...
only if i had lived my life differently...


she thought silently, as she blew her 5oth birthday candles....

Ps: My first 55 ever in this blog :) .....

Everything is never as it seems...

She knew the answer even before the phone was answered... but patiently again listened to his secretary voice saying .."Neil is busy. he will call u later"
He hadn returned her call past two days... this was not like him.. even when angry, he would let her know the reason and would end the fight within a day..

She had felt him pulling away from her quite a long time now.. He hardly spoke to her, and when he did he would tell her he was too busy and drop the call within few minutes..

There was a sense of unknown lose in her.. she felt the dampness on her cheeks and thought this might be the end of a beautiful 5 year long relationship.. with an instant urge in her to be alone from the rest of world.. to cry her heart out... She started her car n drove aimlessly for an hour .. there were hundreds of thoughts in her head .. wanted the answer for his ignorance on her..

And then she couldn even drive anymore.. She saw herself at the beach where they had their first n many more dates.. there was a small sigh thinking of all the beautiful moments spent together..she remembered his promise to build a house for them here.. walking on the beach, she thought she may never again be with Neil on this beach..

Lost in her deep thoughts, she ignored noise overhead of her .. her cell too started ringing.. she saw that it was Neils call n knew for sure that he called to break up with her.. this is it,she thought... you get dumped at the same place where you had your first date.. what an irony!! With a brave heart she answered the call and heard Neil say "hey sweetheart look above.. at the sky".. for a moment she was confused and then when she did .. she saw a airplane carrying a sky banner sign -My Darling Please BE mine.. she heard him again saying "look to your left" and there he was holding a bunch of red roses walking towards her..


Tears were rolling down her eyes now... he got on his knees and proposed "Marry me.. make my life as beautiful as you" ..Instantly she grabbed the flowers and started hitting him. He pulled her close n held her tightly and said sorry.
"Why have you been avoiding me" she asked.. wiping her tears he answered.. "so that you get really mad at me and come here to cry your heart out"..."I wanted to surprise you here"..
"How did you know i would come here" she asked..
"i know you more then you know yourself, but i dint know it would take you two days to come here".. he winked.. "now please say yes" ..
with a wicked smile and tears still rolling down her cheeks she replied " i shall think about it" ..
he just laughed...he knew her answer immediately!!



PS: I havent attempted writing a story for almost year now... hmmm... Guess have lost a bit of the writing skills :)...

International Day of Love

So how did your valentine day go guys???


All u singles out there.. did you flirt the day away??
anyone's got any special moments to share??


Let me tell you mine...


Day started out pretty normal.. with the boy driving my uncle to bus-stop early in the morning... i opted to stay back at home for two reasons..
1) maid would come by 7:30..
2) had big plans of baking a home-made-valentine-chocolate-cake for the boy..


I just had half n hour to make the cake.. cos the boy would be back by then.. wanted the cake to be a surprise for the boy.. But for my great horror.. turned out only one glass of milk was left and the recipe needed minimum 2 glasses.. i decided on trying it out with just 1 glass.. with the cake batter ready .. all that was needed was to place it in the cooker. and with this done. i just had to wait for the boy to be surprised ....

Boy came back in no time with a bunch of roses n carnations(oh yeah i love carnations :) .. especially red ones)... cake was still in the cooker ..n by then the whole house had started to smell of the baking cake.. my boy has got one hell of a inquisitive nose.. n i din take him long to land in the kitchen with an raised eyebrow..as always any plans to surprise him in food section gets busted easily.. so i was caught red handed with the baking cake..

when the cake was ready to removed out from the cooker.. i realized that the dish in which i poured the batter inside the cooker had gotten tilted and water in the cooker had flowed into the vessel.. so cake wasn as i expected it.. but the boy munched on it anyways...

Boy took me valentine shopping in the noon and i ended up picking two jeans and one capris ( aha sale season... i just love this month for too many reasons ;).. )..
One of boy's friends got this complimentary passes for place called i-bar for the evening... so we ended up over there .. nothing like a good music and a round of drinks n dinner with friends on a valentine evening. It was perfect double date.. clicked too many crazy snaps..

The most embarrassing part of the evening was...me n boy's friend sheetal, wanted to teach these guys how to give a salsa dip pose for the photo.. she tried to dip me and was unable to take my weight **FYI- I weigh only 50 kgs.. please dont think otherwise**.. which resulted in a near fall and boy saving us both on time from the big crash... all the while i was laughing my heart out.(can say results of a two very strong cocktails... ) Reached home by 12 and it felt like the entire day had just passed on in a fast-forward flow..

Anyways tell me guys how did your international-day-of-love go????


PS: Woke up at 7:30 with a heavy heart.. n now at office.. as usual with a fresh set of Monday blues....
I HATE MONDAY MORNINGS :( ....

Kitchen Chronicles

It is a very normal day in the kitchen... girl is busy getting the oil ready in the kadia(utensil) for mustard seeds n curry leaves seasoning and the boy is lost in cutting onions... oil is hot n ready for the mustard seeds .. the girl drops the mustard seeds into the oil and immediately jumps some 3 feet away .. yup u guessed it right... she's freaking scared of the oil droplets that jump out when mustard seeds crackle... boy looks at this and starts nodding his head..then the gal gets ready to drop curry leaves into the oil from 1 meter away... boy stops cutting the onions ...

boy(like a modern day hero): give i will drop the curry leaves
girl(with a relieved look): take it.

boy stands in front of the stove holds up his palm inward, right above the utensil and looks at me

boy: see nothing happens.. you simply get scared.
girl: yeah yeah.. you first drop the curry leaves

boy drops the curry leaves n holds his palm again on top ... gives me a sweet smile.. immediately smile turns into funny frown.


ahha my love u got it right this time... sometimes the oil crackles do hurt :P ....


PS: No person was seriously injured / bandaged / hospitalized during the above event.

Month that reads love....

Caution: Mushy post ahead.. not advisable for boys!!!!

So begins the week of love.. whats on your mind this time???

I somewhere once read... there doesn have to a special month or week or a day for love.. yup thats very true.. but i wonder how many of us committed or rather married people among us do something extraordinary for our loved ones daily, unless it happens to be their birthdays or its an anniversary..

and with us married people out there.. cupid seems to have flown away..

Last year me and the boy were both looking forward for Feb 14th... love was totally in the air for us both...spent the entire day together.. there would be lot of surprises for the day.. we crossed our usual get-back-home-time deadlines put at us from both the houses and stayed out till almost 12.. but this year it looked like the enthusiasm had reduced..

So i have decided to hunt the cupid and get his ass arrows down on us.... well me n boy both have started spreading love with help of farming in FB.. boy has started drawing love signs for me and i have been drawing hearts in my farm..
lols i know that's very wacky of us.. but at times it feels good to be called a fool in love...

I have also decided to leave lovey-dovey messages for the boy this entire week... so here's one ...


There is something about u that makes me and my world go round n round n round...
makes me wake up each morning with a smile.....
and makes my each day amazing!!!

A tough paid ride!

I live in a city which approximately has around 80000 auto rickshaws (For people who are not familiar with this word - autos work just the way a taxi works ;) ). Number of autos outruns the city buses here. With that huge number at hand, getting an auto ride when you need is still a problem.
No.. its not that these many autos aren’t sufficient for the city crowd, its simply bcos the rick(auto) drivers won be interested in your destination. Asking these guys for a ride is almost like trying to pull a buffalo into a pond.

Yes most of you out there guessed it right. I live in a city called Bangalore. Here it’s easier to find a eunuch on a road then get an auto.

One golden rule about Bangalore autos is they wont agree to come if the destination is too far nor do they agree for close by places. Decision to take us or not would be entirely dependent on their mood at that point of time.

There are episodes when people here ask the rick drivers where they wanna go, instead of the other way around. This usually happens after a very heated and defeated argument with these drivers.


For my total rotten luck, i sometimes have to depend on these ricks when getting back home from my work. And out of 8 auto guys i ask, may be (if luck decides to run the other way around) one might agree. Last night i had to depend on these freaking ricks to get back home. I asked around 10 ricks and none of them agreed. They all have this sensational your-destination-is-so-lame expression when they hear unwanted / not-so-interested (according to them) destinations. All of them were acting as though i was asking them to take me to some red light area.

With each auto counts increasing, my temper too started its climb. Finally, it mite have been the 10th guy i asked that night. He said 50 bucks. Meter charge for my place will fall just 20 bucks. Normally i would have argued with them and gotten it down to 35 bucks (even though there is no need to pay extra for such a short distance), but i was super pissed with these guys and dint want to pay them anything extra. So the moment he mentioned 50 bucks, i gave him a your-so-lame look and walked off!!

I tried for another three ricks and after that again one more said 60 bucks. i thought thats it.... i am done with these people.. i cant ask them anymore.. i just walked off and immediately called the boy who was busy at work .. told the boy i was not even gonna look at another rick and that i would prefer walking then taking these damn ricks. The boy told me to wait there for him, but i just couldn stand there anymore looking like a fool.. So i started to walk (needed the walk badly to cool my fuming temper). i decided to meet boy at one place which was about one km from where i was. All the way i walked i silently kept cursing in my mind that one more rick guy talks to me, am gonna burn his rick down. I felt like pelting stones on all the ricks in the city. Gosh those guys can really get your blood pressure running if you have a bad office day.


So i have taken a oath that i won be stepping inside these damn ricks at least for a month or until i forget last night’s incident or else if it is the last option and i desperately them. HMPH!!!!!!

When it comes to all about hor(r)o(r)scopes!!!!

So how many of u believe in astrology and horoscopes, read the daily and weekly predictions... depend on it for every single step in your life... follow the lucky colors and stone.....

Do you believe that compatibility between a girl and boy depends on their horoscopes???

Well to tell you the truth... i do believe sometimes..

Let me tell you a story...

Last year when i had just got engaged to the boy.. i was sorta curious to know how well we match ( Our parents had matched the horoscopes before itself n i did it personally just for fun).. i found that we match quite well according to the sun signs..

Another colleague of mine had gotten engaged around the same time and he was also getting married just a few days before me.. this guy believes in horoscopes completely.. and he forwarded me a link to check out my compatibility with the boy according to the moon signs... the website predicted we do match.. but not too well.. we can easily get irritated with each other and may not be very happy.. well i was not sure what to make of it...

Later that day my colleague told me.. he believes in this website a lot... website predicted he and his fiance were very well compatible and would bring each other happiness.. and he would not have gone further with the proposal if the horoscopes said otherwise.. i forgot about this entire compatibility predictions within few days..

Last month i heard that this colleague of mine had met with an accident and fractured his hand badly recently...and just after two months of his wedding had been absconding too from home for a week( in my opinion he was just 24 years old .. so too young to be getting married and taking the responsibility of the family).. last week when i was in my old office... the housekeeping female told me again that his facture was sorta a very serious and he has been advised to take rest for a few months... n then when she told me he was so happy before the wedding but now he was facing so many problems... thats when it struck me how wrong the horoscopes predictions can actually be...

According to that prediction.. i guess me and the boy by now should have started hitting each other and run away in opposite directions... but all i run away from is when he comes behind with a glass of milk in his hand... arrghhh....


Once an astrologer told me.. if you dont match the horoscopes and get married without any prediction... you will be happy... bcos you really don know what it might have predicted.
but if you see and come to know that it really does not match .. inspite of this you go ahead and get married.. then you will end up blaming all the silly problems in your life over that marriage... so either dont see or you see and follow it accordingly...


i say what he said was correct :) ... you match the compatibility yourself without any external aid called horoscopes... just go with what your instincts predict rather then horoscopes...