so gonna miss u.....

We have been good friends for 7 years now... N i still remember the first time we met..it was my first day in the engineering college and all the girls as usual had formed a big group and were waiting for the introduction ceremony to begin. We got introduced there by a common friend Reems... And that was just the beginning...

Weeks later we started sitting together on the first bench in the class ( Ask how come me n 1st bench... well we thought that lecturers usually concentrate on the last bench . so we can get away with doing anything right under their nose... now that was our illusion.. We got caught for most of the pranks that semester)...

It just took us one freaking evening of tiring Engineering drawing class to become good friends.. I was waiting for reems to get back from the clutches of that monster lecturer and that was when we both sat and started talking about our crushes and everything else.. And from then on we were tagged as good friends. Come the second year of engineering.. we got tagged as the pranksters too...N we also shifted to the last bench( yup we learnt a lesson - Nothing can ever replace the last bench)...

We were team when it came to mischievous deeds.. once we even teamed up to pick a dead frog from the road and drop inside our friends desk... N also we got into the firing line for pranks together...

We shared secrets.. shared laughters.. shared gossips.. shared books.. shared memories.. happiness and gloom...

Once out of engineering days... we still were the same.. we have been each others shoulders to cry on.. the first number and name that comes on mind when we have to share some news... happy or sad..


N on Saturday she left to US for a year on work .... The entire Saturday was spent packing her three years of junk collected here...

Thats us both in the photo trying the karaoke without the mic .. some 10 days ago... Awww


The sales, discounts, shopping, gossip and ladies night out will never be the same without you gal... I am so gonna miss you Raqs :( ......


PS - N when i seemed all sad and depressed.. the boy says he will take me out drinking to a local Bar to overcome my nostalgic feeling... so much for his wicked sense of humor... hmmph..

Love Lost .....

He saw her gazing at the blue dress displayed on the mannequin. Even after 2 long years, he had recognized her at one glance. She had grown thin, but definitely looked more beautiful then ever. She still held that attractive look which made people to just stare at her. And that was what he was doing at the moment. Admiring her from a very safe distance. Something seemed to have disturbed her, and she suddenly turned his way. She looked all surprised now to see him there.

He walked towards her, fearing the possibility of her ignoring him and walking away. But then she smiled at him and his tension seemed to fade away. They stood there facing each other silently. There were so many things he wanted to tell her, so many questions he wanted to ask. No words came out of him.

He: Hi, such a long time.

She: Yes, its really a surprise to see you. You look the same.

He: Yeah. So hows life? Hey how about a cup of coffee? Are you busy?

She: No, cup of coffee will be great.

They now sat at the coffee shop talking about everything other then anything related to their personal life. He was actually scared to ask her about her present. He was not sure to how me may react, if she said that now she had someone in her life. They had a distance of 2 years between them. There seemed to be a lot many changes in her now. She had changed the way she wore her hair. But her smile was the same. He still knew how to make her laugh. For anyone else looking at them now, they may have seemed like a perfect couple enjoying a cup of coffee. But only they knew about the underlying tension in between them.

An hour had passed by quickly and she realized that she had to leave now.

She: Its already late. I have to leave. Thanks for the coffee.

He: Oh am i paying for it? I thought you were, so i ordered the most expensive one!

She laughed, stood up and ruffled his head. And he just wanted to freeze that moment.

He walked her to the lift and the tension was back now. He was not sure whether he should ask for her number and she seemed quite jittery too.
The lift opened and she walked inside. He just stood out and smiled at her.

She: i dont know if i will see you again anytime.

He nodded silently. The life door started to close.

She: You know ... I still ...

The door had closed completely by now.

He stood there staring at the closed door.
Then very silently he murmured "yeah i love you too!"

A Hope.....

Feel Free, Fly High..

A glass window, A crash against it!

Broken wings, Broken spirit..

A wish to fly again, A wounded soul..

A healing hand, A hope to fly again..


And Life continues.....


PS: This is about a cuckoo that crashed against our window ten days back... even though it is badly injured, the spirit with which the bird tries to fly again is amazing.. Few days back when we had kept the bird outside to enjoy the morning sun, a eagle out of no where came down and carried it away.. but then it dropped it back immediately into our neighbor's compound.. the bird was injured again due to the fall.. but it never lost its spirit... every day i look at it gazing up into the sky and trying to fly again...
And am very sure it will fly away one day....

Guess we all have something to learn from this....

Wedding Blues!!

I always loved attending weddings when i was a younger! Weddings meant running around the house with all your other cousins, new shining clothes, arranging all the accessories matching the dress, applying mehandi, and even applying heavy makeup from aunt's or mom's cosmetic kit(meant red flashing lipstick and those rosy cheeks- gosh just cant believe how tawdry they used to be!) which wasn allowed on normal days.
I would be the most excited kid around, cos that was the only time where i gottta meet all cousins and it was almost like a get-together!

Ask me now to attend a relative's wedding and il go all awwwwww!!! oh no! not another wedding! Now wedding has become like a fete' where you sell out all your best breed horses. Most of the aunties are looking out for a girl, so they can get their son married asap before he finds someone for himself ( maybe some of the poor guys may even have no idea of all this being cooked up behind them. So Guys just in case your mother is attending a wedding - Be careul). They just keep observing the girls out there like some secret talent show! And you know you have won it when your folks get a call the next day or within a week asking if the girl is ready to get married!
If am attending a arranged marriage, i usually sit there and wonder whether the couple on the stage are actually happy or just putting up smiley faces! And how much do they even know each other for that matter. They might have gone out a few times, spoken on the phone for a while or exchanged e-mails!
Attending a friend's wedding always gives me these jitters, if am ever gonna get married ( i mean to some sensible guy:P ) ...

Edited and rambled on......

Recently one my friend got married. Unfortunately, we gals couldn make it for the wedding. going there would finally make us realize we are growing ole... i mean seriously "OLD"!! Wish there was a way to be stuck to any age between 18 - 24. It's unbelievable to even imagine that one among us gals is getting married and settling down. I just feel we are still a lot young. Gosh i still remember us gals in the hostel, living the very carefree life. Not at all bothered about what's tomorrow gonna bring for us.

I had to attend a wedding few weeks back. It was like a who's who of my community. All around were people whom I have known since a kid. People weren much bothered about the groom and bride, all were just busy talking among themselves, commenting on peoples clothes or just gossiping. Then there were these people whom i havn meet in a very long time(i mean literally like 6-10 yrs). You go and speak to them, they all go with an expression of 'now whose daughter are you'. Then they play the guessing game and if they nail it out right they go 'oh my gosh. look at you. you have grown so big. just cant recognize you now at all' and all you can do is give them your best cheesy smile! At times even I gotta play the guessing game, people come upto me and say 'remember me :) ' and i have to brush through my memory lane to see if i remember them. If i cant then again the same 'sorry cheesy smile' lites up on my face and my folks will have to refresh my memory of meeting them.

The best part of the weddings are you are all dressed up well, looking out for good looking guys in the crowd, and if you happen to notice one then feeling good that the wedding was worth attending after all :)!!!